Losing my humanity

In an attempt to cut loose and be reckless, I have hurt two people over the weekend. I'm now feeling like I'm distancing everybody inadvertantly, and nothing I can say can change that. I've tried apologizing with no avail. If I keep this up, there will be nobody to talk to. I didn't know how bad things were with Auror until her last entry. I now feel fear for the first time in a long time. I'm sorry to those I hurt.